Are you at home in your own life? Are you functioning in habits or your true self?
Is the life you're living one that you love? Is it one that aligns with your inner desires and personality?
See here's the thing about personalities...
Although we have biological propensities built into our DNA, personalities are partially formed through our experiences. Personalities can be like shells we put on in order to help us triumph in a given situation. This sometimes occurs in childhood when we are completely unaware of what's happening. We put on a shield to function as best as possible in our environment. This isn't always a bad thing. These protection layers can help us stay safe in dysfunctional, unfortunate situations. But there can also be a danger in it; because "masking" encourages things that are not truly US because we are perceived as different. So in order to function at a safe level of consistency in the environment, we tend to operate in habits that serve us. Because of this subconscious defense mechanism, huge portions of our true self can be ignored and remain completely undiscovered.
Sometimes we find ourselves still putting on the masks late into adulthood. By then it feels so normal we don't recognize it and have become oblivious to the impostor that has formed. Suddenly we wake up one day and realize we are living in a "safe" construct, and we may be admired, but we are unknown- even to ourselves. Breaking out of the delusion requires coming to interior stillness.
So how do we be people who are raw and real, living from our true self? I think we have to rediscover ourselves again through a childlike lens. In that place of inner quiet, the unmasking so to speak, is where we connect with the CORE of our true self.
Jesus urged us to be like a children. Children don't edit their feelings. They express in uninhibited fashion!
+The false self is preoccupied with protecting the ego while the inner child does not despise vulnerability.
+The impostor says it's what you DO that is paramount, while the inner self is happy to BE, without judgement...even from oneself.
+The true self deals with the inner mess, while the ego struggles to protect itself with illusions and masks.
Maybe the mask you put on for protection long ago is expired...maybe that part of your personality isn't even valid anymore because the life you have now no longer demands it for survival. The unexposed is the unhealed. Unwillingness to be open is a refusal for further healing. Denial blinds us to problems, so there we stay...STUCK.
Vulnerability is a gift. It is the doorway to empowerment and healing.
Maybe it's time to meet a new part of yourself.
Maybe it's time to come out of hiding.